Tuesday April 27, 2021 Unsettling night last night. Dreamed of Michelle and we were just walking around the streets like we used to just going for a walk and she took my hand. Messed me up for the rest of the night and didn't get much sleep. When faced with the past the strongest man cries. To cheer myself up and re-center, I drove up to Coos Bay this morning and am now at Starbucks with my laptop, writing. Much like the "Before Times", ie before Covid19. Feels good to reexperience a moment like this, almost as if life has a chance of returning again to what it used to be. When Michelle and I separated 4 years ago, and in regard to our shared possessions, the first thing she said was that she wanted to keep the family table that I had built for the family a number of years ago out of 2 by 12 by 8 foot redwood boards that I gotten cheap from Home Depot. It is a great table that was about 8 by 4 and you could bang around and could use for any family event or